A Big New Project

Okay, so I know I’ve been doing that annoying thing for weeks where I kept saying, “more to come…more to come…” then crickets. And I just know you’ve been on pins and needles (insert heavy sarcasm), so today’s the day I’m spilling the beans. Remember that time at the first of the year where I wrote about our family finally being settled, so this year was going to be focused on the projects we really wanted to do around here to make this house ours? As I wrote those words, I kept thinking, “famous last words Jenn, famous last words.” Well, maybe it was intuition, because unknown to me at the time, another member of our family was on it’s way. Yep, WE’RE HAVING A BABY! A baby boy to be precise. And to say it’s a HUGE shock would be the understatement of the century.

Baby-Boy-Ideas MyFabulessLife.comIn fact, in that post about “being settled,” I had written a big piece about our fertility struggles over the last four+  years and then ended up deleting it for some reason. Sometimes I get stuck between wanting to share more personal things and worrying that it’s TMI, but I’m going there a bit today, so hang on (or skip it–I won’t be offended). Without boring you or making you blush with too much info, when we started trying again for a baby four years ago, we were surprised to find, after a very easy first child, that more children were an extremely remote possibility. When I initially met with a fertility specialist, I was told that I had so few eggs left (it’s called Low Reserve), that a donor would probably be my best bet and I could expect to go through menopause at about 35 (I was 32 or 33 when I was told this). So, we tried a round of IUI, and after it being unsuccessful, decided that a donor was not a route we really wanted to go and with, our chances so low, we decided not to fork out thousands more dollars for something that most likely wasn’t going to work. With that, we proceeded to plan our future as a family of three. There was some sadness, of course, but over time, I got really, really okay with it. There would always be that little part of me that desperately wished I could give my daughter a sibling, but I was truly happy and content with where we were as a family. This all came about the end of last year, so we planned lots of trips for the summer, bought season passes to our local amusement park for the summer, and started making plans for the house knowing this was how our family was going to stay. Queue evil laughs. Best laid plans, right? :D

So, come February, after a month or two of “Am I? No, can’t be. Am I? No, can’t possibly be.” I decided I should probably actually find out. And we were SHOCKED when the test came back positive. If you’ve ever dealt with infertility, you know that the whole pregnancy test thing is sort of just setting yourself up for disappointment, so where I started out at the beginning taking tests as soon as possible, over the years, I started putting them off as long as possible just to avoid the disappointment. I quit tracking anything, just sort of let nature do it’s thing. And quite honestly, at this point, my daughter is seven, so we had started talking about more permanent solutions to ensure we didn’t have kids 10 years apart.

IMG_3814 MyFabulessLife.comSo, here we are, excited and completely shocked–my daughter was/is OVER. THE. MOON! (This is a blurry screenshot of the video we took.) We gave her a stuffed animal with a little card that said, “SURPRISE! You’re going to be a big sister!” She cried and cried, and kept thanking me :) . If you know me, you know I’m all about keeping it real, not the Social Media picture of #beautifullife, so I would be lying if I said it didn’t take some mindset adjustment on my part. I know everyone’s experience is different, so I hope this isn’t taken to say that I wasn’t totally thrilled, but after getting used to the fact that it just wasn’t going to happen, it was an adjustment to get back into the mindset that “Holy s**t, we’re having a baby!” I spent the first day I found out in sort of a haze of shock. I’ve had some meltdowns (probably partly largely hormonal) that we’re starting over with the sleepless nights, a human who needs a whole lot of attention, that my kids will be eight years apart–did I mention sleepless nights? That part is a little daunting to me to think about again. In fact, I think it was in the first week that I knew, my daughter and I had a particularly long battle over doing homework and I sat on the couch, completely exhausted, just wanting to be done with the day thinking, “Holy shit. I still have to do this and have a baby who’s going to need me for everything.” Then I cried. I think after eight years of life being a certain way and finding a groove, maybe these fears of the new, unknown are just normal? It’s a big change. BUT, that’s not to say that there’s also SO MUCH joy. Joy that my daughter finally gets the sibling she has been longing for, having another baby to love, the opportunity to just raise another good human to send into the world (I think I raise good humans ;) ), knowing those exhausting times are fleeting and the joy that comes with it is worth it all. The whole gambit. I’ve told several people, I’m just sort of a hormonal s**t show these days (which is new for me, the last pregnancy was not like this). We went to a friend’s wedding a couple of weekends ago and by my tears, you would have thought I was the mother of the bride. The waterworks turned on and WOULD NOT shut off. Even the Best Man noticed while he was standing at the front during the wedding. Cried again during the reception while we were all dancing. No reason. Good times ;)

IMG_3817 MyFabulessLife.comAnyway, we’re excited for sure. The baby’s room is even well on it’s way because we got a little excited and just started going at it, so LOTS more to come on that in the coming weeks. What once was our shared office, is no more. In fact, anyone local looking for a big, green desk? If you’re interested, hit me up by e-mail! (jenn{at}myfabulesslife{dot}com).

Shared Home Office Space | MyFabulessLife.comAnd that’s my long rundown to basically say, we have a baby on the way. I’m trying really hard to get back to some regular posting around here, but I feel like the laziest person on Earth the last few months, so projects and writing have sort of fallen to the bottom of the priority list. Pregnancy in my 20’s is definitely a whole different bag that mid-30’s pregnancy ;) I’m sure you can expect quite a bit of baby-centered stuff in the next little while (I’ll try not to go too crazy) since I spend most of my free time on Amazon these days looking for stuff for the room, clothes–hunting down the deals. But I’m also taking this as my kick in the pants to take MFL in a direction that I’ve wanted to go for a long time and focus not just on home decor/project stuff, but the everyday homemaking too, like food, my favorite budget-friendly sources for things, purging and organizing (something this baby really seems to have awakened in me), and even just a little bit of real life coffee talk chat peppered in.

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Comments

  1. says

    congrats, jenn! this is so exciting! baby boys are the sweetest!! i cried tears of joy for you while reading about this… there’s always a plan for us that we ourselves are totally unaware of, right? XOXO

    • says

      Oh, thank you sweet friend! It is so crazy how things work out and I’m sure once he’s here, I’ll feel like that’s just how it was supposed to be all along.

  2. Mary Lou says

    I have two children 10 years apart in age (same husband/father–I feel compelled to mention this after having to tell every doctor throughout my entire pregnancy.) Secondary infertility is a real thing that only a few of us ever really knows about.

    I often comment that I think my younger son was about one year old before I truly got over the shock and surprise. And despite the fact that he was born on my husband’s 50th birthday, we have never felt younger or more vigorous than we do even now, 14 years later.

    Many congratulations.

    • says

      Aww, this makes my day to hear this! Thank you so much for taking the time to share with me! And so funny you say that about the same father thing, because my husband and I were just laughing the other day that people are going to think they have different parents.

      Thank you so much!

  3. Jamie says

    I am just so thrilled for you! We had made plans to have our babies at least four years apart and in different seasons (to cut down on double daycare time). Four weeks later, something told me I was pregnant and now my little surprise baby is six months old and her sister is 3.5. Congrats!

  4. says

    Congrats!! Infertility struggles are so hard. It seems so unfair that so many of us have to endure that. A baby boy will literally melt your heart, you just wait;). Looking forward to all the baby/baby things/baby room posts to come!

  5. Sharai says

    Congratulations!!!! I totally know what you mean about being in a family groove, I’m due in September too and our daughter is 10 years old! We have all been wanting a baby for so long around here, but many times over the last six months, my husband and I were very tired, or just having a great family day with the three of us, and he says, are we SURE we want another baby?? The sleepless nights along with our business and everything else is definitely daunting, but I know it will all be worth it! So happy for you and your new adventure, I’m sure both of our big girls will be wonderful sisters and a great source of help! Xoxo

    • says

      Thank you! And I SO feel you. We have had those exact conversations several times, but like you too, I know it will all be totally worth it when they get here, and watching those girls be big sisters will be THE BEST!!! Best wishes for your new adventure too!!

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